Saturday, November 27, 2010
Don't Forget to Live
I am a huge dreamer. It’s something I’ve always prided myself on. Dreaming is what made me pursue my passion in photography. And start my own business. Dreaming is what got me through high school, four years that I absolutely hated. I dream about having the perfect life, with perfect children, living in a perfect house with my perfect husband. I dream of opening a quaint little studio right by the beach, and serving tea to my clients as we sit and chat by the sunny windows in cushiony chairs. I dream of travelling the world. I dream about living in perfect bliss, where nothing can ever go wrong, and every day is magical.
I saw this quote once. It said ‘it does not do well to dwell on dreams and forget to live.’ And at first I thought it sounded kind of morbid. But then thinking about it some more, I began to understand it.
Sometimes I get so caught up in my dreams, that when something goes not to plan, I freak out. When my photography business isn’t going the way I want it to, I panic. When my friends or boyfriend make me angry, I get upset and it takes me way longer to forgive them than it should. When I look at my bank account and see that I only have $15 to get me through until my next pay check, and I have other bills due and groceries that need to be done, at times I just start crying. Yes, I know I sound really emotional. But that’s just it, that’s what the quote is about.
When things don’t go the way I’ve dreamt they will go, I need to learn to accept it. Because life definitely won’t be perfect. My husband will piss me off, my kids will make my hair turn grey waay before it should, my house will get messy, I won’t be able to afford a studio for a long, long time. But that’s life, right? Make it beautiful, no matter what happens. I’ll keep dreaming, because I can’t deny that’s who I am, but the most important thing to do is live.